Last night, I sat at my computer, searching my inventory for aqua clothing, props, whatever. I searched Marketplace. I searched fashion blogs. And I just could not find anything that I really wanted to wear... because I've been thinking so much about the shooting in Colorado this week.
I'm in Canada. In a relatively safe part of it... and shit like that doesn't happen here. I'm shaken by it. I don't understand it, and I can't... I can't ... fathom.... such horror. I'm truly blessed.
I've read and heard, a billion times, that "every behaviour makes sense"... and I do believe that, whether or not I think the REASONING is good sound reasoning. Somewhere in that sick shooter's head, there's a reason for this... whether or not he's aware of it, doesn't matter. Somewhere in his history, there was a trigger... don't get me wrong, I'm not justifying it. Hell no. He deserves to work in a salt mine for the remainder of his very very long life. I don't believe in the death penalty- I think he should live, and fucking SUFFER. Work hard. Work long hours. Toil. EARN his repentance.
But I just could not... dress up... for today. All I wanted to do was wear black, and speak out. And so I am.
My thoughts, prayers, wishes, and Light go to the families of the victims, and to those that are injured, in any way, from this horrific incident. My love to those who may need it so much in this terrible time.
You always see me in very ... well, in dresses, or over-the-top looks. I never just wear normal clothes in SL... and I suppose that's because I wear normal clothes in RL. I'm a curvy pervy in real life, and finding amazing clothes that are my size can be difficult (that is, until I discovered Torrid.com. Seriously. Go. Shop. Feel happy.) So when I play in SL, my avatar is my paper doll, that I can dress up in all of the things I'll never be able to wear.
This week, though... I wanted something easy-going, that would reflect the summer that FINALLY got here... gods, the summer has sucked so far, but now it's SUNNY!!! Yay!